I've always thought being open was the spiritual posture.
Open to people. Open to whatever God wants to do. Open to the move of the Spirit. Open, open, open. I built my whole faith around it.
Lately I'm not so sure.
Because openness without discernment is just a door that doesn't close. And in the spiritual sense, that's not faith. That's just a hole in the wall every voice can walk through and call itself God.
I'm starting to think I've confused availability with discernment. Some of what I called being led was actually just being unable to say no. Some of what I called faith was fear of being seen as resistant or proud or hard to teach.
Scripture talks about testing the spirits. Not every voice that sounds spiritual is the Spirit. Not every word that opens with "the Lord told me" is from Him. I knew that in theory. I didn't always live it.
A yes that comes from fear is not the same as a yes that comes from faith. I haven't always been honest with myself about which one I was giving God.
Still working it out.